i think i came up with the answer myself.

alright.. i checked with my therapist on what she thinks i should do about cutting my sister and everyone connected to her off and she said, "well.. do you even talk to your sister now?" and i stopped for a second and said, "no.. her and my mom just stalk me. i don't communicate with her.. i see no reason to." then she said, "okay.. there ya go. what about your mom? i didn't think you spoke to her much anyway.." then i said, "i don't talk to my mom. i avoid talking to her because she ALWAYS has something negative to say and i'm not doin that anymore.." so my therapist basically helped me come up with my own solutions. so those assholes can stalk me all they want.. no shit under my nails. they can just join my fanclub which i refuse to talk to. you assholes never used to concern yourselves with me.. wtf do you want? doesn't matter. i suppose if you were smart- you'd probably realize how i'm giving you a taste of your own medicine. you can't change my mind. i don't need either of you for anything now. you've taught me to find somewhere else to get help or rely on other people for what you provide for me (i say this mostly to my mom because my sister is basically a huge wart to me.. big and annoying). i'm hoping my honesty will turn your desire to stalk me by reading my blog like it's the newspaper OFF but i might be giving the intelligence of both of you too much credit. the thought of them idiots assuming that just because my grandma and i always spoke to each other- i'll be JUST like her and condone their stupidity (my grandma basically just took my fat sister physically pushing her on her ass at my apartment.. if anyone EVER pushed me on the floor- my temper would flare up and i can guarantee you that i'd make sure they were sorry for pushing me.. not to mention- my grandma basically condoned my mom using my body as a shield while my dad was kicking me.. DID MY GRANDMA FEEL MY DAD KICKING HER AFTER MY STUPID MOM BROUGHT ME INTO THE QUARREL? NO. DID SHE HAVE TO BE CUT OPEN TWICE AND GO THROUGH IMMENSE ABDOMINAL PAIN?! HELL NO. I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT- ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU NEVER TOOK ACCOUNTABILITY FOR IT OR EVEN APOLOGIZED FOR IT EVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE. don't give me that "i helped you after your car accident.." bullshit either.. newsflash- THAT IS A PARENT'S RESPONSIBILITY TO TAKE CARE OF THEIR CHILD WHEN THEY'RE SICK AND/OR ALMOST DIE. I'M NOT SOME KIND OF IDIOT WHO WILL JUST FORGET ALL THE SHIT I HAD TO GO THROUGH ON ACCOUNT OF YOU. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE YOU'RE TOO FUCKIN STUPID TO APOLOGIZE TO ME. how's that for acting like grandma? am i doing good? SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO GET CUT OPEN SURGICALLY TWICE SO FAR BECAUSE OF YOUR NARCISSISTIC SELFISH ASS. got anymore excuses for my mom's stupidity, flying monkeys?